11 days later

They got in the lift.
“Are you not attending the event down the hall?”
“No, it conflicts with a meeting”
….
“Did you attend some event yesterday? you seemed nicely dressed”
Checking phone and awkwardly smiling, “Maybe I did, Maybe I didn’t… actually I had an interview after 5pm.”
“Oh! interview after 5pm, good for you. I am quiet relieved, I thought you went out on a date”
“What?”
Smiles

BLING! The lift door opens and they walk away in different directions.

A million light years later

“I think you like me”
Smiles
“I know I like you”
“mmhmmm”
“I am pretty sure that you also know that I like you”
Smiles broader
“Clearly I know you like me”
“….”
“Altho what beats me is, why won’t you ask me out? Not knowing that is the only thing stopping me from asking you. … Also, you get shy and awkward when i try to even befriend you. seeing you shy and awkward makes me all shy and awkward, at least one of us should not be shy and awkward and say lets date”

At this point if this were a romantic comedy, the quiet one would have shut the talkative one off by a steamy kiss. But that ain’t happening with our hero and heroine coz this ain’t a romantic comedy this is the life of nerds, they are too awkward to hold hands let alone go for that dramatic steamy kiss. Our hero and heroine just smile awkwardly and walk away.

A million light years later they probably ended up asking each other out I guess, I can’t tell coz I am probably dead then.

Note from author: What is your favorite steamy kiss from any movie or series? Mine is Mutt and Alexis first kiss in Schitt’s creek.

🎉The book 🎉

Been an avid reader of spiritual, self help books for a very long time now.
Not many of us have the time or patience to read many books at this day and age.
Took the parts that worked for me and made that into a journal.

Obviously nothing in here is original, any profit if at all made from this venture would go to the charity karam-kodupom.

Amazon link of the book

Please try your hands in this journal and let me know if it made your life better. For every purchase you make, you also get a free give away to your friend or family. All you need to do is share your email-id that you used to purchase the book and the email-id of your friend or family.

If you know of someone who cannot afford the book but can benefit from it, they also get it as a give away gift.

Reach out to me via comments in this blog post or via any of my social media platforms @csuryapandian or mail me at suryamailsyou@gmail.com



13 reasons why

  1. because you would rather take train even if it is long and uncomfortable than a flight since you care about carbon footprint
  2. because you dont ask questions
  3. because you are patient
  4. because you are somewhat funny
  5. because you are the only adult that i know who is down for disneyland
  6. because you are smart and hard working
  7. because if you make that big of a deal about little things like food waste, I imagine how sincere you would be about the big things in life
  8. of course, because you are sincere
  9. because maybe we can be ourselves and yet be liked by one another?
  10. because you argue about the silliest things and I find it funny
  11. because i like you
  12. because you like me too?
  13. because for the love of god, for once in our lives maybe we got it right

Capitalism, love, betrayal & revival

Recently got conned by someone I had know for more than 25 years. No major loss, betrayal on some level that made my prespective on the world slightly negative. Here’s a post fixing that.

Having worked in IT, here is my simplistic understanding of the business world. The ultra supremely rich people pool their money and call themselves “Venture capitalist”. They then invest their money in ideas/people that they think would become profitable. Because they are ultra rich, they invest in many companies. Even if one among the 100 companies that they win become profitable and eventually gets public offering they will become even richer.

Taking this principle into the world of love. Should a loving and kind person stop being kind just because one of their loved one exploited their love or betrayed them? No. The more abundant the love in you, the more okay you are to the risk and the actuality of betrayal. Just like the ultra rich, they know that 99% of the investment is not going to yield profit, yet they invest because they know all that it takes is for one company to become profitable.

Similarly, let us take the learnings of betrayal and become more wise. That doesn’t mean we become grumpy and cynical. Let us always continue to love and be loved because nothing in the world comes close to love.

அன்பே சிவம்!

Transformation

Love is transformational.

When we love someone or something. All the things that are ugly about us are forgiven or sweetly forgotten.

When we are bitter or loathe someone or something. Even the slightest of annoyance are blown up so much so that even breathing heavily could cause huge problems.

Love is transformational. But to be able to love everyone all the time, one must have god like qualities. Not sure even gods have those qualities.

Well, maybe Jesus did. But then look what happened to him. Didn’t have proper clothes, he was bruised, starved and crucified.

At least hindu gods are more human in that aspect even though at times they “look” unhumanly. Hindu gods love and rage.

We are no gods, are we? Petty little humans, that is what we are. For us, here are some things to do when not in good books with someone or something:

  • Hoponopono
  • list out all the great qualities of them
  • list out why I choose to be friends with them in the first place
  • gratitude list of the friendship
  • if in person reconciliation is not possible, at the very least send prayers and good thoughts

It helps. Even if we don’t get to the state of love again, from “bitter and loathesome” I go to “ah! i see you are human too. let’s just keep distance for the benefit of both of us”

On the bright side, such problems are classic first world problems. So, yeah! throwing in some general gratitude list to remember that I have food, fresh clothes and many more helps too.

All said and done, here is a phrase from Asha Nayaswami

So, if you are genuinely with someone whose power of negativity is stronger than your power to hold your center or even more imaginary to convert them to your vibration. Run away. Run away as fast as you can, in whatever way you can. Just run away. Put distance between you. Because you can’t just allow yourself to be overwhelmed. But when it comes to you and you feel you are in a dark place if you cannot run away. Then run away inwardly. Then do not engage. Don’t converse. I am going to even add something else. Don’t pray for these people even.

I have had friends who for various reasons (such as divorce and things like that) end up entangled with someone whose energ is much more negative, than yours is positive. Then I remember in one such situation “Well!Everyday I pray for them”.

NO! DON’T PRAY FOR THEM. Don’t make a link. Just say to DIVINE MOTHER, just once. “YOUR PROBLEM, too big for me”. Humility is self-honesty. I am neither the best, nor the worst.
But what I am is, what I am. If this is too big for me, freely and happily admit it.

Don’t feel that spiritual truth demands that you prentend. You have to be absolutely authentic.

To a beautiful friendship 💕

One of my school friends and I were speaking over end of this week. He used to be an extremely shy and awkward during school days. We fell out of touch in course of time.

Many many many years later when we connected recently, he was obviously this whole new man.
He was very sweet and friendly. Seems to enjoy his work and had a loving family.

It felt heart warming to know his life story and journey. With his permission, sharing his journey here hoping that it warms or helps you in some way. It did, for me 🙂

TLDR: Meaningful connection is something that a lot of us would find comforting.
This is a no brainer, but you can’t directly get to meaninful connections without building good friendships. Like everything else in life, luck plays a part to.

Anyways, here is his beautiful journey in his own words.


So yeah, it made me happy and here I am sharing this beautiful story with you.
A warm and beautiful weekend to all of you.

Closing this with a beautiful prayer from my very favorite book “A mindful path to self awareness”

May we be healthy. May we live life with ease. May we love and be loved. May we be joyful and kind

Abandoned book…

Abandoned “How to stubbornly refuse yourself to be miserable” or a book titled something along that title.

Books, work or personal relationship this quote is very relatable.

I don’t abandon books usually. But this one I had to, turns out I am not as much of a pathetic loser as I thought I were. Yaaaay! good for me.

Myabe this is a good book, maybe even the best one that teaches us how to cope.
But why should we cope and survive.. when we can thrive and enjoy.
There is no dearth of warmth or love anyways. Not with you around anyways.
Phew! whatta ride.

I will remember the painting on the wall behind you. The absolute attention you give, genuineness and kindness that soaks into your body language that you don’t even have to speak, we just know. You are the reason why I don’t need this book. You are the reason for my smile and serenity today. I will remember you for a long time and will try my best to pass the warmth. May god bless you. You are of course in my thoughts and prayers. Praying for all the love and luck to come your way.

Rainy Storm – lyrical redemption “wrecking ball”

Loved the music of wrecking ball, but not so much the lyrics.
So, wrote my own.

original: https://open.spotify.com/track/2vwlzO0Qp8kfEtzTsCXfyE?si=f98448234eb74f60

sing along to the bgm with my lyrics: https://open.spotify.com/track/0AhsYyKYi2J6w9rqP93DSe?si=256ce4d69fcf4334

and have a happy valentine ❤

We met, we spoke, our hearts on the sleeve
we looked, never blinked an eye
we kissed, we fell in love
a love no one could deny

Don’t you ever think I will walk away
I will always be with you
I can’t leave your side, just as you can’t mine
we will always see through

Our love was like a rainy storm
a story like no others
all we ever wanted was to make a home
All you ever did was
Love me
Yeah you, you see me

I put you high up in my heart,
And now you rule my world
With time, we healed
And now, we’re what we dreamed

Don’t you ever think I will walk away
I will always be with you
I can’t leave your side, just as you can’t mine
we will always see through

Our love was like a rainy storm
a story like no others
all we ever wanted was to make a home
All you ever did was
Love me
Yeah you, you see me

Our love was like a rainy storm
Yeah, I just closed my eyes and fell
Had me falling in your arms
All you ever did was
Love me
Yeah you, you see me

I never thought I would get this far
I just wanted us to make a home
And instead of using wits
I guess I should have felt the love

I never thought I would get this far
I just wanted us to make a home
I guess I should have felt the love

Don’t you ever think I will walk away
I will always be with you

Our love was like a rainy storm
a story like no others
all we ever wanted was to make a home
All you ever did was
Love me
Yeah you, you see me

உலாவிடும் உயிர்


அயர்ந்து உறங்கும் உலகு
அலைந்து திரியும் நம் உயிர்

வெறித்து கிடக்கும் வீதியில் ஓர் சந்திப்பு
இனம் புரியாத ஓர் ஈர்ப்பு
காரணம் இல்லாத சிரிப்பு

கைகோர்த்து ஓர் உலா
ஓடி திறிகிரோம்
ஆடி அயற்கிறோம்

காலையில் எழுகிறோம் எல்லாம் மறந்து
எதேர்ச்சியான சந்திப்பு
எங்கேயோ பார்த்த நினைவு

எங்கு தான் என்று தெரியவில்லை
புன் முறுவலோடு பிறிகிறோம்
நாம் மறந்தாலும் நம் உயிர் மறவாது